Cats who teach me to fly…

Sunshine has been looking sick. I decided to sent her to Dr Tham for a thorough check up and she was diagnosed with FeLV positive last Monday.

I keep her in my master bedroom and she is allowed to roam freely. She is on medication as well as injection. She has been eating well. Every time when I see her finished the plate of food I left for  her, my heart leaped with joy and I thank the universe.

I have always wanted to adopt Sunshine but due to the number of cats I have now, I am unable to adopt her.

And having her with me right now is not the way I want it to be. I would rather she remain healthy in the wild.

Everyday I pray for her recovery.

I hope to see the active cat she used to be. She is as loving as ever. Super “manja”.

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Snowy. She never failed to recognise my vehicle. She was always the first one to run to me. Once my vehicle make a right turn to block 316, she would stand up immediately and run behind my vehicle until I came to a stop and she would wait for me to get out of my vehicle and to my usual feeding place… She was always the first one I saw…

She was always so excited. I knew she was hungry. Whenever the food was served, she would always be the first one to eat. She never stopped making me smile. And I allowed her to be always the first one to eat.

Look at her playful face.

This afternoon, a resident living there rang me and told me that a cat has bitten to death by a pack of four to five dogs last night and it is the cat that I have been feeding. I didn’t know who the cat was. I was shocked and found it hard to believe.

As I was attending a workshop, I was unable to leave immediately. Finally, the workshop ended at 4.30pm. I rushed to Hougang. This time I didn’t see Snowy dashing out for me… The lady who called me waited for me at the void deck. She told me Snowy’s body had been removed.

To double confirm that it was Snowy, I showed Snowy’s photo that I had taken from my handphone to the lady.

Yes, it was her. I was silent throughout the feeding. However, I still thanked the angels for keeping the rest of the cats safe. Looks like my life force energy is not powerful enough to protect them, to protect Snowy…

I was disheartened. I didn’t know what to say. It was like all my energy has been drained off. The people who saw Snowy being attacked by the dogs did not come forward to help.

I missed little playful Snowy. I know I am going to miss her… Miss her dashing towards me. Miss her eating and loving my food I gave her…

I want to thank Snowy for loving my food. I thank her for remembering me and recognising me always. Be it be in the morning, afternoon or night. Thank you for always putting a smile on my face.

She will always be remembered by me cos she is part of my life…

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I was at Mariah Carey’s concert last night. Our new sports hub was so warm and uncomfortable… See, typical Singaporean is complaining again :). Anyway, once the music rolls, I started to move my body to the music and forgot about the humidity.

Mariah Carey not only surprised me with her still so powerful vocals. She also surprised me with her…size! I knew that she didn’t hit the notes during her concerts in Tokyo and Seoul and I didn’t really go into youtube and watch her performance. I still have the image of her being a sexy diva. When she walked to the stage, I was like ‘HUH”!!! I kept laughing. I laughed not because of her size, it was because of the tremendous changes in her.

Mariah Carey had a song sang sitting on a piano. Her crew carried her up on the piano and when she slipped down from the piano by herself, I was actually kind of worried for her :). Everything went smoothly after all :).

The media reported today that the audience said that Mariah Carey hit all the notes. I think she missed it when she sang “I’ll be there”.

Mariah Carey was humourous. I love her blue dress. I tried to take a few shots and because of the lighting and the mobile camera I used, I was unable to get the shots. Even if it was taken, the quality was lousy.

The two hours concert was fantastic and entertaining. I enjoyed myself very much and hoping that the concert could last longer :). However, all things end…

I shall look forward for her next concert here in Singapore!

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How often does Singapore have such weather? Singapore… I used to respect our leaders so much and I always take them as my role model… Time has changed. People have changed. Our leaders have changed. And I no longer look upon our leaders as my role model because our nation has become a money oriented nation. Our leaders have become greedy so do our people…

I still love Singapore as it is peaceful, safe and clean. I can never deny the hard work of our leaders as well as our pioneers. I can have what I want here. Turn on the tap and there is clean water. Isn’t this place a heaven on earth? Yes, it is. We have more than what we need and it is always unneccessary… because we, man, are greedy. We can never be contented with what we had. Eventually, we have forgotten our values…

In Singapore and in many countries, a successful individual is measured by how rich and powerful you are. It is a joke to me. It is really a joke to me. I am smiling, not mocking. I am smiling because I can’t see the connection. To me, rich and power are like clothes. It’s a surface thing, nothing profound.

Singapore is still my choice to live in. I love summer. I love December in Singapore. Wet and cool. It reminds me of Paris. I remember I was 24, traveling solo to Paris. Walking down the street of Champs-Elysées on a Christmas week alone. It was drizzling. I didn’t carry umbrella. I was cold of course and I hated myself for not being a coffee person.

When December comes and when it rains, I can still remember the smell of Paris, the dampness and the feeling of being…solo.

So, does tonight’s weather remind me of Paris? I guess more or less :).

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Every morning before I start my day, I would feed the cats first. First I left clean water and food for the cat/cats below my block. Next I go to Jalan Tenteram.

These are the cats at Jalan Tenteram. I believe they must be hungry the whole night. Unlike our cats at home.

These are not all the cats. There are still many cats out there.

In the evening. I would feed the cats at Hougang.

There are a few out there too.

After feeding them, i would go to Jalan Tenteram again.

Beside feeding them, i sterilised them. I sent them to the vet when they were sick or injured. I nursed and released them. Those that were missing, I reported to AVA and SPCA. If anyone was absent, I would find them and call out their names. Hopefully none of them miss their meal cos I don't want them to go hungry. If I can't find them, I would leave food on a paper bowl for them. These are the little things I do for them and I don't leave immediately after they had finished their food. I would stay on for at least another 15mins to pet them.

I believe many cat, dog and animal caregivers do the same thing and they even do more than I do. We put in so much heart on it. Our money, time, effort and love…

I have come across a 70+ year old lady, kicking their food away while the cat was eating. A family who has nine cats at home and they only love their cats but not the strays around their area. They too threw their food away right under my nose. They threw things at the strays and shoot them with ball bearing.

Today, when I was feeding at Jalan Tenteram. An 80+ old man urinated intentionally at the place where I left the food and water for the cats. When I saw it, I was boiling at a very extremely high temperature. I yelled at him. I asked him why must he do this. I told him to stop doing all these and when I turned my head to look at the cats, Sunshine and Daisy, my heart sunk. They didn't seem to know anything. I was extremely upset by the whole thing. Why must animals be treated like that? Why must human being behave disrespectfully?

I threw the food and water as well as the water container away and cleared the urine stain with clean water. I replaced a bowl of fresh dry food and clean water for them and placed it on the other end instead…

At that moment, I was wondering how far can an animal, cats and dogs lover go and how much can we take these? There are so much anger and so much sadness.

With the effort and love we give to the animals, AVA and SPCA would just simply put the cats and dogs that we caregivers care so much of to sleep without us knowing. Town council and the member of the public would just simply relocate the cats. Have they ever fed them? Have they ever cared for them? Have they ever nursed them? Have they ever done anything kind to them? Have they? So on what ground and in whose name do they have the rights to just put them to sleep and to relocate them…?

How much can we, caregivers hold on? We can hold on, we definitely can hold on till our last breathe cos we have an extremely big heart.

Those who have abused, ill treated or/ and killed the animals would have to face the consequences they brought upon themselves. I can't help them and no one can…

This is Daisy. Sunshine's mummy.

And this is Sunshine, picture taken a few days ago. She was looking sick. I brought her home and nursed her till she got well and released her.

Everyone should love animals and people just like we love ourselves. I have stopped consuming eggs. I still have chocolates in my fridge. These chocolates are given by my friend as a gift. Once they are finished, I am a vegan.

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