Cats who teach me to fly…

This little sunflower is for Miemi. Hope the sun always shines at her and her friends in the rainbow bridge. I love Miemi and I love all her friends she has made.

I know Miemi is listening to me every day and I can feel that Miemi misses me too. I want to keep our lights glowing and I believe strongly that our lights will keep glowing. Only those who have love their animals would understand the strong bond between us.

Miemi, Mummy loves you. Mummy always do…

This is my beauty queen.

And my slacker king…

They never stop to amuse me.

Just like Miemi, they follow wherever I go. They are growing bigger and bigger in size and more and more affectionate.

How could one live without ever having an animal in their life time? Animals can help human being to gain enlightenment. Just like Miemi has enlightened Mel and I…

I believe Monnie and Cashie are here to teach me something too.

I kept Miemi’s urn on top of my cupboard in the hall. I have displayed many of Miemi’s photos beside it. I also had her yearly birthday photos pasted on the wall. I want to honour her and remember her. I want to connect with her every day.

Before I left for Hainan dao for holidays, I made a flower arrangement of lilies for her and left it beside her urn. I want her to appreciate fresh flowers at where she is now, at the meadow, being healthy and playing with her angel friends.

The next day after when I got back from my holidays, I bought a few stalks of orchids for her and myself too. I chose two best stalks for her. Orchids are beautiful. In fact, flowers are all beautiful to me.

When Miemi was around, she would always watch me doing flower arrangements and she loved to sleep beside the flowers and I always tap her head with a stalk of rose. I missed her so much.

Last night, I make her another flower arrangement.

I watered the flowers twice today. My house is filled with rose fragrance. I hope Miemi loves it.

Miemi and I will stay connected this way until we meet again at the rainbow bridge…

Monnie Lee, the daring and adventurous…

Cashie Lee, the loving and affectionate…

They are my new kittens. Monnie, female and Cashie, male. They are siblings.

They both make me smile but they are definitely not for replacing my beloved Miemi. Miemi can never be replaced.

They are just like Miemi, following me wherever I go. Since they are only three months old, they are extremely playful. After Mel and I have them, especially Mel, then realised that Miemi was an angel. When Miemi was around, my house was totally a cat proof free house. When Monnie and Cashie are here, we have to get window mesh for our windows cos they climb all over the house.

I found a few Miemi’s photos that were stored in my camera yesterday. I am happy to see her photos again. I carry her photos everywhere, in my wallet, ipad as well as cellphone. This is one photo that I love…

I miss her so much and my heart aches whenever I think of her…

Looking back at the posts that I had written, I realised that I have stopped volunteering and spent all my time with Miemi during her tough time and that was the most precious time in my life. My relationship with Miemi improved tremendously during that period of time. Time with her was never enough. I want to be with her again and again. I want to love, take care and protect her again. Yes, I want to be where she is.

Besides stopping volunteering, I also stopped playing badminton regularly and meditation. Right now I am playing like once a month. I want to rest a little. In fact, I am quite lost. I don’t know what I want to do besides this. I love baking cakes too. I will just let it be. Yesterday…tomorrow…I really don’t want to think about it now. Not caring if it is meaningless or meaningful as I understand completely well that nothing lasts forever.

I had a great trip with Mel to Hainan island. I did not miss Miemi any less. I think of her everyday. I am glad that Mel is there for me always and I am happy being with her.

What am I going to do tomorrow? I have a hamper to prepare tomorrow. I am trying to buy some figurines of cats, dogs and angels but I could not find it online and I don’t know where to buy them. If I am not lazy, perhaps I will go to Nex Mall and see If I can find one.

I feel poor without Miemi… She was everything to me. I will move on for her. I know she wouldn’t want to see me sad. There is nothing more i want to say but to tell her I love her…and I always do…

I have stopped volunteering and seldom plays badminton. Hmm… I probably would not be engaged in volunteering activities right now. As for badminton games, well, no more silly competitions for me and maybe I will start playing and meditating soon. But I guess it would be like playing once in a while or maybe not. Yes, I will carry on with my flower business and continue with my research on baking and my love for animals will never die.

Cashie and Monnie, my new little kittens, Mummy will take care of you. No animals can replace Miemi. Miemi is always special and unique in my heart. The only one I love most in my life…