Cats who teach me to fly…

It’s ten minutes to noon. It is not a hot afternoon today. It rained heavily early in the morning and the weather is making me feeling cool and not warm and humid.

Miemi tried to vomit yesterday evening and early in the morning today but nothing came out. She is sleeping right now. Hopefully, the vomiting goes away after a good nap.

I fed her a tiny portion this morning. She didn’t seem to want to eat but I have to at least feed her a little. I am going to skip feeding her noon meal. Hopefully, her digestive system gets better and the vomiting would stop. I will feed her in the evening. I will give her some tuna and see if she eats it herself before I feed her some mushrooms.

I carried her like a baby just now. She used to be so heavy and now she weighs around 2.5kg. I can feel her bones. I cuddled her all the same and teased her just like the good old days.

She was supposed to have her 8th jab tomorrow but we are not continuing. I will arrange an appointment to visit the vet for a second opinion perhaps about replacing her chemo drugs.

It’s the second day of New Year. I did not make any special resolutions this year. Just hoping Miemi gets better each and every day.

This year, I would concentrate on making more money without sacrificing my freedom. I will still be running my flower business. Sales has gone down as the economy is turning bad now. I will do a lot of baking and wait for an opportunity. Once I get an ideal stall location, I will proceed with my baking business. This year is a year to catch some good fishes.

Mel baked a Summer Berries cake on New Year’s Eve. I baked one myself too, a small one, half the size of hers.

There are blueberries, raspberries, blackberries and blackcurrants. There were different tastes – some sweet, bitter and sour. A refreshing taste.

It is always nice to be home, watching HBO, dvd or baking or doing anything cos Miemi is at home too.

I had a badminton game yesterday. Had a slow game. I can’t play fast now, probably because age is catching up and I am serious when I say our physical reaction slows down as we age. I have heard other players complaining about me being slow haha… I tried to be fast and I just can’t get back to the good old days. I am not sad. I love to see myself age. Love to feel life and the nature in us and the surroundings but I hate to see Miemi suffer.

I will not push myself in the game. I will just be myself. It was a relaxing game yesterday, playing with young players who are on par with me. When I look at the players who are fast, immediately I felt tired of catching up with them haha… I just want to have a nice and relaxing match at my own pace. Not too slow or too fast.

After the game, Mel and I went for a movie. We watch “Les Miserables” at the Cathay. Mel and I watched the musical in London two to three years back. Besides “Phantom Of The Opera”, “Les Miserables” is the best performance I have ever watched. It is a musical that I will never forget.

Of course, the movie is not as good as the live musical but we still love to watch. We headed home after the movie. Didn’t want to leave Miemi at home alone for too long.

Miemi is still napping, tossing herself around turning this way and…

…that way

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Miemi and I had a lazy Sunday today. Miemi was lying on my bed the whole day. She just came out from the bedroom to the hall. Now she’s in her small little box.

She just had some tuna, not a lot but just a bit. I gave her her favourite canned food and treats that she loves to eat. She has stopped eating her sashimi salmon treats. I believe she will eat it when she is better. At least, she tasted some tuna. Still a fussy Miemi. I feed her three times a day so I am not unduly worried about whether she eats the treats or tuna. I will keep giving her the food she loves and she is free to eat. I will not stop her from eating any food.

I have decided to stop chemo for her cos I am afraid she may be too weak to take the 8th jab which is on this Thursday. My mum had stomach cancer but she died of chemotherapy treatment and not the cancer itself. I can see Miemi was so weak after her 7th jab. Her hind legs were weak and I can see that she has problem walking properly. Even when she walked, it was only a few steps and she had to lie down. She hunched often which I believed it was a sign of pain. I want to stop this chemo drugs from damaging her. I know the consequences well for stopping chemo but I am all prepared for it.

I will give her every moment of happiness. I am not giving up on her. It is either we win or lose and I am preparing to win also. I am confident in the products that I am feeding her right now. I don’t know how well it would go on her end. I am prepared with whatever that may come next. I want Miemi to be happy always.

Miemi has been hiding when she is grooming herself lately so I hardly see her groom. She groomed on my bed today and how much I miss looking at her grooming herself.

I believe she will continue grooming herself in future.

It’s New Year’s Eve tomorrow and I am all excited. Don’t ask me why I am excited, I am just all excited:). Mel is going to bake her summer berries cake tomorrow and I am still thinking what filling to fill with the vanilla sponge cake. Hmm… it can be durian… or … I think will I try a durian cake.

I have been sitting on the couch for two hours thinking of the cakes I want to bake. There are lots of cakes that I want to bake. Vanilla sponge with lemon mousse, coffee sponge with mocha filling, chocolate banana cake, all time classic the “Black Forest” cake, steam cakes, fruits tart etc… etc…

Looks like I am so greedy:p. Will do it one by one.

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It was raining last night and I was feeling cold while I was sleeping. I set my alarm clock at 5.50am but the weather was so cool that I slept back again and when I woke up, it was 6.15am. I jumped off the bed and quickly prepared food for Miemi. After feeding Miemi, I took my shower and freshened myself up. I was with Miemi at the corridor for an hour.

I went to get breakfast and after breakfast, I began to bake my log cake. I accidentally mixed a few egg yolks with the egg white. The meringue was not well beaten today. It was not stiff and kind of creamy. I carried on folding the meringue to the egg yolk mixture and sent it to the oven. I was curious to see what would happen.

Everything was normal in the oven. I took the cake out and let it to cool. When the cake has cooled down, I touched the surface and realised that it was a little wet on the surface. I went ahead with the preparation of chocolate and coffee mousse. It was nicely done. I spread it on the cake and put it into the fridge to allow the mousse to harden a little.

I met Mel at 3pm. We went to Ikea to buy a bed frame for her new helper. I am glad that she hired a helper. That would not only help her in looking after her Dad and Mum but also help her to wash her clothes and do household chores. That will save Mel plenty of time.

I reached home around 6.30pm. I took the cake out from the fridge and decorated it, trying to make the cake look like a log. A log shouldn’t be neatly cut.

This is the little log cake that I have done:).

It may not look good to many people but I swear it really tasted fantastic. It is the best mousse cake I ever done. I will bring some for Mel to try tomorrow.

Miemi was pretending to sleep on the bed again. It was time to feed her and I had to get her up to eat. She is a very good girl. Always finishes what I feed her. I love her so very much!

She is resting on the bed again.

Head!

Backside!

Wish Miemi a speedy recovery.

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I got up at 5.30 am in the morning as usual to feed Miemi. I fell back to sleep again and woke up at 7.45am. I planned last night to go to the supermarket to get fruits for agar agar and campbell soup for lunch. I let Miemi out as usual. I kept her company while shew was out. She would always show her appreciation by rubbing herself on my leg.

After an hour lounging along the corridor, I had to get her into the house as I needed to vacuum and mop the floor. She was reluctant to get in and I had to move her slowly into the house. I always feel good when I see my home is clean.

I left home at 10am to pick Mel up. I borrowed two dvds to watch. We got some fruits on our way back home. When I met Mel this morning, she was well-dressed. I had told her that we would be having our Christmas Eve lunch at Novena Villa at one of the restaurants but I changed my mind. I actually ordered a Christmas Feast from Pizza Hut for lunch. I had the table set up and Mel had no choice but to agree to eat at my place.

I fed Miemi immediately when we got home. Miemi was ok and for the rest of the afternoon, she slept in a basket of blankets under the table while Mel and I were next to her, watching dvds and enjoying our lunch. I simply love the moment where we are all together.

After lunch and a movie, I felt sleepy and took a short nap. Mel was enjoying Xbox. After her game, we started our baking.

Mel was chopping the hazelnuts. She said she wants chocolate hazelnut cake for Christmas and we will bake summer berries cake on New Year’s eve next week. We had the bottle of wine which Mel had bought yesterday.

I bullied Mel again. Had her wash all the baking tools and purposely picked on her heehee… I knew she is clumsy but I just love to disturb her. She was trying to fix the mixer just now and as I was enjoying myself spreading the cake with nutella. I didn’t want to get up and help her. She tried so hard to fix it and I was there telling her “not correct, not correct…” I fixed the mixer in the end. I believe she is smart now knowing what to do next time.

She suggested that we spread the whipped cream first before spreading hazelnuts. Yes, she was right. It was easier this way. There were many times when Mel gave me suggestions which are useful to me. I often seek advice from her too.

This is how Mel’s second cake looks like.

I am not a nutty person. Mel spread three layers of hazelnuts. She really loves hazelnuts. She was all satisfied. The cake smells great! I believe she can’t wait till tomorrow to eat it.

I sent her home around 10pm. We spent a meaningful evening baking a cake for her family and had a wonderful all day pizza brunch and dinner 🙂 and of course the wine too.

This was Miemi 15mins ago.

Walking out of her jungle shelter to have water.

And settling down for more water.

Guess Prednisilone really got her real thirsty. Hopefully, the medicine isn’t causing so much damage to her…

I had a wonderful Christmas Eve 2012:) and wish that Miemi gets well a.s.a.p. and remain healthy always. I wish that Mel too would be happy always and patient with me:).

World Peace!

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Miemi had her 7th jab last Thursday. She was her normal self again just a week before her 7th jab. She followed me to the bathroom like she did every morning for years and climbed up and down the washing machine and t.v. console. Did things that we both are familiar with but after her 7th jab, everything seemed to go downhill again. It breaks my heart so much. I missed those times when she would walk me to the bathroom. Missed having her wait for me outside the bathroom.

She also had an ultra-sound scan last Thursday. She had four tumors and the biggest tumor was measured 2.6cm when we first had her scanned about 8 weeks ago. The tumor has shrunk and it is now 1.39cm. The rest of the tumors have shrank too. Mel and I were happy at that moment and Miemi needs only to be jabbed fortnightly.

It just hurts me so much looking at Miemi these few days. She lost her appetite and seems to be continually losing weight. Beside the three little meals I feed her everyday, she is not eating anything at all. By right, I should be contented that her tumours are successfully shrinking and at least she eats small portions of meal three times per day. However, I didn’t take it for granted… But, during that moment when I heard that her tumours have shrunk, I did feel happy about it.

I hope the side effects that the jab had done to her will go away as soon as possible and she will be back to herself again. I want to see her happy permanently.

Miemi slept the whole day today. I don’t know if she is feeling pain or not. I really hope not… I must think positively. I believed this is how every parent feels when their kids are sick or their loved ones are ill.

I left some treats and wet food for her at night, just in case she is hungry.

Miemi will get well each and everyday. She has to go through such tough moments before she gets well. We have to go through. Miemi will recover.

The above picture was taken few hours ago. Mel bought two bottles of wine and I made Miemi a model for the wines:). She was actually saying “The wine is as cool as I look. Chill it and be cool!”

Since New Year is around the corner as well as Chinese New Year and Christmas is just two days away, Mel has decided to get some wine for a little celebration. We tasted the wine before we purchased and we both love it.

We are going to have a Christmas Eve lunch tomorrow and the rest of the day would be baking Christmas cakes for our loved one. I am always happy to be at home with Miemi. Mel will be celebrating Christmas with her family on Christmas Day and I will be home with Miemi. Just love being with her.

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