Cats who teach me to fly…

Looking back at the posts that I had written, I realised that I have stopped volunteering and spent all my time with Miemi during her tough time and that was the most precious time in my life. My relationship with Miemi improved tremendously during that period of time. Time with her was never enough. I want to be with her again and again. I want to love, take care and protect her again. Yes, I want to be where she is.

Besides stopping volunteering, I also stopped playing badminton regularly and meditation. Right now I am playing like once a month. I want to rest a little. In fact, I am quite lost. I don’t know what I want to do besides this. I love baking cakes too. I will just let it be. Yesterday…tomorrow…I really don’t want to think about it now. Not caring if it is meaningless or meaningful as I understand completely well that nothing lasts forever.

I had a great trip with Mel to Hainan island. I did not miss Miemi any less. I think of her everyday. I am glad that Mel is there for me always and I am happy being with her.

What am I going to do tomorrow? I have a hamper to prepare tomorrow. I am trying to buy some figurines of cats, dogs and angels but I could not find it online and I don’t know where to buy them. If I am not lazy, perhaps I will go to Nex Mall and see If I can find one.

I feel poor without Miemi… She was everything to me. I will move on for her. I know she wouldn’t want to see me sad. There is nothing more i want to say but to tell her I love her…and I always do…

I have stopped volunteering and seldom plays badminton. Hmm… I probably would not be engaged in volunteering activities right now. As for badminton games, well, no more silly competitions for me and maybe I will start playing and meditating soon. But I guess it would be like playing once in a while or maybe not. Yes, I will carry on with my flower business and continue with my research on baking and my love for animals will never die.

Cashie and Monnie, my new little kittens, Mummy will take care of you. No animals can replace Miemi. Miemi is always special and unique in my heart. The only one I love most in my life…

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Mel and I went to Hainan Dao last Thursday. She booked a room at Meritus Mandarin, which was at the business centre. The surroundings were quiet. There was little activity around there.

We had wenchang chicken for lunch. Mel said that our hainan chicken rice is so much better than their wenchang chicken. For me, their sauce is the same as our hainan chicken rice but the texture of the chicken was different. The wenchang chicken was hard to chew. It was not as smooth as what we had in Singapore. Mel and I simply laughed at ourselves with the way we ate.
Before we got back to the hotel, Mel was worried that she might not have breakfast on the next so she bought a loaf of bread and a piece of cake.

We went back to the hotel and rest. We also bought a ticket to Zhang Yimou live show which was called the “Impression Hainan Island”. The show plays in the evening.

We had dinner at 8pm which was before the show. I had a seafood hotplate rice and Mel has a fish hotplate. We were quite satisfied with the meals.

The show started at 8.30pm. I found the performances impressive and Mel loved it too. I especially liked the “coconut” performance where the dancers were all dressed up in green suit. I would recommend everyone to watch. We went straight to the hotel to rest and get ready for our Sanya trip on the next morning.

The trip was a two day one night tour to Sanya, which cost RMB360 per pax. It was pretty cheap. Converting it to S$, it was less than S$80. This was coupled with a night’s stay at a hotel and four meals. Yeah… sounds good!

We woke up at 5.30am on the next day. Our coach arrived at 7am. Happily we went up the bus and started our journey.

So where did we go? We visited the beach at Sanya, which is call “Dadonghai”.

It’s a nice beach. Just a little crowded. The weather was hot and humid. Mel and I hid ourselves at one of the nearby hotels and had a banana split. We also rode a speed boat to some rock formations known as “Tianya Haijiao”. They are just big rocks engraved with “天涯海角”. What we loved was the speed boat ride:).

We had dinner at the hotel and went back to our room to rest cos both of us were exhausted with the day trip. I slept at 9.30pm while poor Mel had to do some marking.

We woke up at 5.30am and got ourselves ready to visit 南海观音. It was so amazing to see such a hugh statue situated at such a perfect location.

I loved the surrounding. Too bad this place is built as a tourist attraction. Should it be built as a buddhist retreat, it would really help many of us fulfil our dream to become a buddhisattva or buddha:). I told Mel that I would love to come here again and live in the hotel nearby and do some meditation.

The photos on top are the surroundings.

The sad thing that Mel and I felt was that we have to pay in order to make a prayer as well as a wish. Mel and I did not pay to get in. We think it is not right for them to charge us. We prayed silently in our heart.

We had lunch and it was time to go back to Haikou. We had checked out from Meritus Mandarin and we had not found a hotel at that time. Mel is always a panicky type. For me, I believe as long as we have money, we can get any hotel anywhere.

Yes, we checked into a hotel which was so much cheaper than Meritus Mandarin and there were night market just outside the hotel. We were happy buying food from the stall and eating it.

On our last night in Hainan dao, Miemi visited me again. I knew she did.

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It has been three weeks and I am still grieving over Miemi. I can’t stop crying, can’t stop thinking of her. Why should I stop or even control myself?

Everyday I call out her name and tell her I love her and love her always. Whenever my heart aches for her, I would call and tell her “Miemi, Mummy loves you. Mummy always do”, several times per day.

I didn’t sleep well every night. I woke up in the middle of the night, feeling painful… And whenever the pain arise, I would tell her that I love her.

I have been thinking a lot about life. It’s meaningless after all. Miemi has taught me to live at the moment and I am happy living at the moment and not to think too much about how tomorrow is going to be or how I was being hurt in the past.

I also tell Miemi to go play, be safe and happy. I keep telling her that she always has a place in my heart and wherever I go, she will always be with me. She lives in my heart forever…

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It’s been a week since Miemi has gone and I still miss her so much. Miss her lovely face, miss petting her, miss stroking her, miss watching her, miss kissing her, miss doing everything with her…
I know she will be sad looking at me feeling sad. If she was still around, she would rub against me and comfort me. Although she is no longer by my side, I believe that she would continue watching me like she always did.
Miemi will live in my heart forever until the day we meet at the rainbow bridge…
I love Miemi…

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