Cats who teach me to fly…

The owner of Spa Florist trapped the cats and kittens and put them on death roll at AVA.
I didn’t see them for almost a week and I felt uncomfortable about it and decided to walk into the stretch of nursery shop at Thomson. And so it was Spa Florist who trapped them and send them to their death roll. They also threatened to call the police if I do not leave their premises. They shooed me away like a dog. What can I expect from someone who chose to kill lives?
Immediately I rang AVA. AVA got back to me on the following Monday. And yes, the missing cats were there.
Mel and I went to bail them. Mel called AVA a 鬼门关. We were not allowed to bail any cats unless we are staying in a private housing. Luckily we know a kind soul who often wait at 鬼门关 to save both cats and dogs who were trapped by AVA or the public. This kind soul would bail them out and give them a second chance to live. Susan Lee is the only rescuer who can help us and she never stops helping.
These were the six black kittens bailed from AVA.

There were so scared. They were around six to seven weeks old.

I put them in a large cage and feed them plenty of food before I go to bed that night and the next morning, the whole place was so smelly. There were watery poop everywhere and some stained with blood. Immediately I called up another rescuer for help. From the rescuer, I got to know that they were contacted with parvo virus which is a deadly disease. Luckily Penny was there to help me took care of all six kittens. Since parvo virus is a deadly disease, there is no cure to it. Penny is experience in taking care of kittens who are contacted with parvo. She may not be able to save all of them…

Four lives were gone and only two survive.
The kittens who did not survive the virus were buried by Penny and I. It was not easy for Penny I know. We were upset…
However, I am glad that the two survivors, I named them Bliss and Gift found a good home after I took over shortly for around three weeks. They were handed over to the adopter last Saturday. The adopter loves black cats. And Bliss and Gift are the fortunate ones.

Bliss(left) and Gift(right).
Their mummy boiled chicken for them every night and gives them the best care and food. This is the only thing I want for them. To have someone who truely love and care for them… Whatever tough work that is behind,  it is always worth saving lives!

Just a week ago, Dharma has left us. Today, Lokit has left me…us.
So, it all comes to an end…

Lokit’s latest photo. Always sweet and beautiful like a princess.

She looked healthy, extremely active and filled with life. She ran, jumped and hopped all over the place and she just started to play fight a little yesterday…
I have learnt from Ava, Dharma and Lokit that when life has to come to an end, it will come to an end and there will be no negotiation, delay or whatsoever. Watching Dharma and Lokit depart were a painful experience for me. I, we were helpless… There was completely nothing we can do…but to hold Lokit in my arms.
I took videos of her. I want to remember her, remember Ava and Dharma. We will eventually meet again and I want to love them just like I love Miemi and everyone dearly…
I am tired.. not because of taking care of Ava, Dharma and Lokit. I am tired of my prayers, chanting, reading etc… my Dharma practice.
Taking care of the three angels and the rest never tired me out. I don’t know how far or how good I have been practising. I felt myself useless cos I can’t even save Ava, Dharma and Lokit and I desperately wanted to… I was and am powerless…to even take away their pain. And what makes me think that I can help them to have a favourable rebirth…
I don’t know and I am tired to think about it. However, these will not stop me from continuing doing virtuous deeds. I want to dedicate my merits to them and for them. I want the best for all of them. I want them to have the best.
I am going to miss Lokit a lot.
I am always visualising carrying Lokit around even when she grows older and bigger. We will stick together through thick and thin just like Miemi… this thought will remain with me forever. It is just like carrying Miemi in my heart always. Lokit and everyone of them will be with me till death find me…

On this Vesak day, Dharma has left us. It is such a pain for me. Our body is really like a clay pot. It is so fragile. This minute, Dharma was dashing and hopping around the house and the next, he was gone…
I miss him terribly. I miss his little body moving and wriggling around the house. He was always catching butterflies. He brought so much smiles in my life. It was so hard for me to take my eyes away from him.

Little Dharma sleeping by himself.

Dharma and Lokit eating in my vehicle. Dharma eats a lot. He was a big eater. Dharma never worries me about whether he was eating enough or not. He has good appetite and I see him getting bigger and stronger everyday.
Everyday I am hoping Dharma to grow up quickly so that his seizure may become history… that was my only hope for Dharma and is still my hope for Lokit.

I have been thinking of Dharma… I regretted not taking care of Lady and watch her gave birth and personally took care of Dharma, Ava, Lokit, Teshi and Vara.
Time spending with Ava and Dharma was too short for me.
Though whatever had happened was an illusion cos nothing really exist in this world. It is all conditioned existence to be seen. There is no I and neither is there Dharma or Lokit…
No matter how illusory it is. Dharma is still my little buddha. My mind is who I am and Dharma and all my cats make a part of my mind…

It is like an heart attack. You don’t know when it will strike them and I swear you never want to see it strike them. There were many times, I did not even dare to check on them. But…I had to cos I love them!

This is my great Dharma. I don’t want to mention the number of times seizure had struck him. With the medication, Dharma’s seizure is under control. Dharma is extremely adorable, so is Lokit. Both tend to play by themselves and I would just sit, smile and watch them.

Lokit, my little princess. Lokit loves running and hopping around. And she always hits on something when she runs. She sticks with Dharma most of the time. When I am doing my feeding, I would bring both of them along. They will sleep comfortably beside me with soft music specially played for them. I will give them food and I do not feel their stress.
I should say it is not easy taking care of them. It requires a lot of patience and love. My love for them conquered my fear of their recurring seizure. If…if I…we…human beings do not help them then who would help them? Isn’t it heartbreaking thinking that they are being left on the streets with no one to care for them?
At least right now Mel and I are doing our part to give them the best care we can and I hope the rest of the world would do the same.

Dharma closing his eyes and contemplating. He is sweet, isn’t he?

While Lokit stays alert and trying to be mindful:).

The five kittens which were borne by Lady were named Dharma, Ava, Lokit, Teshi and Vara. Ava, Lokit, Teshi and Vara are named after Avalokiteshvara which is the name of Bodhisattva Quanyin. I strongly believe Ava is residing in a land which he deserves.

Dharma reminds me to keep practising the teaching. And Lokit reminds me to continue practising universal compassion.

I came across this in the afternoon and I am going to memorise it…

The Buddha says, “Knowing this body like a fragile clay pot, and establishing this mind like a fortress, conquer Māra with the sword of wisdom. Then protect what has been won, but cling to nothing.”
And I say excellent!

Things really turned out bad. Part of it was my fault. When I visited the fosterer’s home, the kittens were active and playing and I did not bother to hold or even check on them. It was because the fosterer said that they ate a lot. They ate all the wet and dry food. And so I thought all should be fine.
Until the kittens were six weeks old, I started to spot one with protruded ribs. Immediately, I sent all of them to the vet. Vet said that the kittens were skinny and had flu.
I already told the fosterer to separate her cat that had flu from my kittens. Stubbornly,  she refused to.
I was extremely furious and I brought all of them home. And I realised that they don’t eat dry food at all. They only eat wet food. They were obviously malnutrition. Both the fosterer and the mother lied. I call them a liar.

This is Lady. She was tested FIV positive. She has five kittens. I named them Dharma, Ava, Lokit, Teshi and Vara. Dharma, Ava and Lokit are suffering from epilepsy at the age of 6 weeks! Ava has passed on a week ago…

This is Ava. So tiny and fragile.

This is Dharma.

And Lokit.
Dharma and Lokit are still battling with the disease. I wish and ask for nothing but their recovery. I simply hope that they are able to survive through the kitten stage and once the kitten stage passed, all their diseases will be gone.

Teshi and Vara.
Teshi is a little bony and I am trying my best to build her up. Vara is normal and extremely active. The healthiest among all.
It was another mistake I made, by not properly checking on the cats and/or kittens and easily trusted someone I hardly know. Life has been lost all because of my negligent. And I call myself a rescuer? Bullshit!