Cats who teach me to fly…

I would start from school, learning and studying hard. Even if my parents could not afford to let me further my studies, I would work as a part timer and study real hard for myself. I would treat every sentient being with love, kindness and compassion right on the day when i was born. I would still choose to move out when I am able to support myself. I want a vehicle too, a small and a simple one, preferably, a mini van. I would volunteer myself in an animal shelter regularly. Love cats, love dogs and all animals. I might not be able to buy a flat for myself as flats in Singapore is still expensive twenty years back. Renting a place is my only solution. I would love to adopt a small animal when I reach twenty-one and when I am also financially independent and continue adopting until my time is up. I might not be able to fulfil my parents’ and siblings’ needs but I would give my love to them. I would still love to take up part time courses, to keep learning new skill and new things, to venture to more areas like what I am doing now. I still would want to be a freelancer and have my own time to be with my loved ones. I want to be financially independent. When I retired I would still like to work a little, perhaps three to four hours a day to keep my mind healthy and stay healthy. I would still play badminton and read alot.

I cannot redo my past but I can still achieve what I wish to change. I may not have a university degree like anyone here in Singapore but I still can have a life that I wish for.
What I can do is:
1) To start volunteer myself fortnightly in an animal shelter.
2) Miemi taught me how to love animals and I honour her by adopting Cashie and Monnie. I will continue loving animals till my time is up. I may not start at the age of twenty-one, however, twenty-seven was never late. Miemi came to me when I was twenty-seven. Thank you Miemi, i have learnt valuable lessons from you.
3) I need to be independent as I have purchased a flat and it will be ready next year. I will work very hard on this without scarifying too much of my time.
4) Yes, I will, Infact already loving all sentient being. I will keep working hard in this area too till my time is up.

The life I want is very simple. Though I am not very far from redoing my life, however, the price of not getting a proper education during my younger days obstructed me in all ways in my career path even till now.

By not showing love and compassion since the day i was born towards all sentient being could result in a lot of guilt and regrets and cultivate bad seeds.

Based on what I have written on top, I have a clearer picture of how I want my life to be. Action has to be taken.

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I have spent most of my time watching badminton matches on Starhub Sports HD Live this week. It was the Sudirman Cup 2013 which was held in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. The final match which was played between China and Korea ended today. China won and there was nothing surprise. I just like to watch them play, I especially love watching Men’s double. There are fast.

Mel and I already bought tickets for Li Ning Superseries which will be held next month in Singapore. I also subscribed to cable TV too. I will select the teams that I want to watch at the stadium. I don’t want to stay in the stadium for too long too. I still love to watch it at home cos I have Miemi, Cashie and Monnie keeping me accompany at home:). Mel will also watch with me at my home too as she did not subscribe to the channel. Even if she does she will not watch too.

The tournament ended today and I don’t think starhub is going to telecast any tournament for the next two weeks. I hope they will telecast the Grand Prix badminton tournament which will start early June. Otherwise I will have to wait till 18 June for the Li Ning superseries.

The Sports channel cost almost $20 a month. Sometimes I wonder if it is worth subscribing cos I only watch the racquet channel and they only telecast ‘live’ badminton once a month.

I have games this Tuesday and Thursday morning. I am putting on weight and I think I need plenty of exercise. I feel pain on my left knee when i climb up the stairs these few day. But I feel no pain when I am walking. I think it is probably because of the foot massage or I could have injured myself during the games. Probably also because I am getting heavier and my body gives pressure to my knees:). Whatever the reasons, I hope it gets better tomorrow.

By watching badminton matches help me stimulate my interest in playing badminton again. I have not visited Macritchie reservoir during the past two weeks. Hopefully Mel will have time next week to go with me.

We actually had a full day meditation this weekends but we cancelled it. Last Friday was a Vesak day. In order to honour Miemi, I decided not to eat meat that day and I will continue to avoid having meat on every 1st and 15th lunar calender month. This is to honour Miemi, to remember her and for my mum too.

People might find me silly but I see this as a connection with Miemi. We will be together some day.

I had this orchid for her.

When I saw these orchids, I have this ‘Sakura’ feel and I love it. Hope Miemi loves it too. I continue feeling Miemi around. I always love to feel her around. I feel kind of sad when I don’t feel her around for one or two days but I understand she may have things to do or friends to play with on the ‘other side’. What I want best for her is to be happy. Knowing that her Mammy loves her always. Whatever choice she make, I want her to be happy. Miemi always have a special place in my heart which nothing can be replaced. I love and miss Miemi so much.

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There is a cats adoption drive at City Square which is from 11am to 8pm. After bringing Cashie to the vet, Mel and I came here to take a look at the cats. I regretted so much that I could not save all of them but I pray that the cats would all go to good homes where there are good people and responsible owner taking care of them. The cats are lovely and well behave. Kittens are snoring their way while the adults waiting patiently for someone who love them to bring them home.

I bought a car decal from the Cats Welfare Society which I don’t know when I will paste it:). I keep thinking what other ways I can help the cat. I can’t have them all. What I can do or am doing now is to feed them if I see any cats who look hungry. I have volunteer myself on the cats’ spay day which is held next Friday but I have not received reply from the organisation yet. These cats voluntary work are to honour Miemi and I am going to honour her as long as I live.

Cashie has a swollen leg which worries me a lot. It happened two days ago. After monitoring him for 48hrs, his swollen leg doesn’t seem to subside so Mel and I decided to bring him to the vet today. Eversince I brought Cashie and Monnie for sterilisation, I have realised how much these furkids mean to me. Miemi will always have a special place in my heart. Infact, I am waiting for Miemi to come back to me. I know we will be together again. Doesn’t matter this life or next life, I believe we will be together again. I told her that Mel, Cashie, Monnie and I will be waiting for her to return. We love and welcome her home. We will wait for her arrival. I ask the angels to guide Miemi to me and me to her when Miemi is ready to come home. Thank you, angels.

Luckily, there was no fracture found on Cashie’s leg. He has infection. My little Cashie always behave like a girl. Mel agrees also.

Both Cashie and Monnie had their sterilisation last Wednesday, which is on 8 May. These are their certificates.

They looked ok to me when they got back home. Look at what they did when they are home…

Playing balls on my bed. I was worried about Monnie at that time but she seemed to behave her usual self. Thanks to Dr Tharm from Island Vet.

Look at what flowers arrangement I have done for Miemi today.

I hope Miemi loves it and I hope she would let me see her one day and allow me to feel her soon.
Mammy loves you.

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I bought these authurium for Miemi. I actually wanted to arrange it with gerberas but it didn’t look good so I went back to Candy florist to buy two more stalks of red authurium. I made it simple by placing it in a vase.

I love authurium a lot. Many people do not like it because it look some kind of awful. I love to arrange it on a big flower arrangements. They make the flower arrangements look exotic and elegant. I like big green authurium.

I choose white authurium for Miemi at first because I want the authurium to stand out from the vibrant gerberas, however, it just didn’t fit in. Therefore, I bought two red one to make the white one stands out.

I think authurium should last for quite some time. They are good with summer weather, especially Singapore. They need not to be kept in cold temperature. I brought the authurium down from Miemi altar today and replaced a simple gerberas and sunflowers arrangement.

The sunflower are not opened yet. Hopefully, it opens soon. I love the colour of gerberas. It gave me a refreshing feeling. I feel hope and happy. I hope Miemi loves it. I hope Miemi knows the flowers are for her. Hope that she can feel my love for her.

I am getting better with flowers. Suddenly everything seem easy for me. I feel no doubt in my skill and I just arrange it naturally. I am beginning to love flowers so much and I am beginning to do bigger flower arrangement and I am happy. Living at the moment…

I will create new flowers arrangement next month. Mel will be having her holiday next month so that she can help me take pictures of the arrangement as I need to publish them on my business website. See, Mel plays an important part.

It’s a warm and humid day today. I am perspiring even when I am sitting down doing nothing. 34 degree celsius today. So sorry to Miemi, Cashie and Monnie that I could not install an air-conditioner but I promised we will have air-conditioner when we move to a new place. So sorry to Mel too that she has to endure such weather condition in my house.

Mama loves you Miemi!

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I have made an altar for Miemi. It is still not completed yet. Below is the picture of Miemi’s altar. As you can see, there are two beautiful angels beside Miemi’s urn. They are “Always Love” angel and “Caring Spirit” angel. Everyday I pray to them to give Miemi’s protection and guidance.

Miemi’s collar is there. Her little pillow and bolster are there and a little white rat sitting on top of the cheese which Mel contributed. Her favourite sashimi treat is behind her booklet photos. We can also see leaves, beetles and butterflies on the wall.

I want Miemi to know she played a big part in my life.

This picture was taken a week ago. Yesterday, Mel bought her two little dogs and I placed them on her altar. Mel and I are going to draw a rainbow and place it on top of the side wall. I am still looking for cats figurines. Perhaps, I might make the whole altar look like an animal kingdom, who knows.

Another sunflower for her. She will have lots of sunflowers to come.

Two days ago, I combined Miemi, Cashie and Monnie photos and I love it so much.

These are my furkids who gave me so much happiness in life. Miemi had taught me so much and we are still connecting with each other and I am still learning from her. They are my angels. It is call “May’s angels”. Every morning they call me “Good morning, Mammy”:). Just like the Charlie’s angels.

When Cashie and Monnie have grown into adult size, I will combine their photos again. I am going to hang them on my wall in my new flat. I will also update on Miemi’s altar.

Mummy loves Miemi, Cashie and Monnie.

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