Cats who teach me to fly…

Mel recently took a photo of me. I loaded up the photos to my desktop yesterday. When I clicked on my photo and looked at myself, I realised that the years are showing on my face. Especially around my eyes. Yes, I have grown old. My eyes say a lot. The ups and downs, the pain and joy, the valuable lessons that I have learnt along the way. I have learnt to accept things that I didn’t want to or should I say I was force to accept reality that I didn’t want to. One after another and each and every time it teaches me to grow. To love and to be compassionated. To be understanding and forgiving. They are all written on my face. My heart ached for myself:). I told myself that I have to treat myself well. Not to treat myself well in a materialistic way but to forgive myself when I make mistakes. To have an open heart and broader mind. To ignore criticism. To always stay calm. To have a relax mind. To not influence by others. To love and be myself. How do I achieve this? I guess the only way to achieve these is through meditation.

I will and have to start meditating. In fact I have already started. Not by sitting down to meditate but to meditate wherever I go and whatever I do. I bring myself to concentrate on what I am doing and whenever my mind wonders around, I bring it back. It is not easy, I have to keep reminding myself.

Sometimes I wonder if Miemi notices any changes in me. I mean physical changes. She was with me when I was 27. Now that I am 40. I believe she should have noticed it. I don’t know if she can recognise me in another next ten or twenty years if I am still alive. I know she is around and will always be around for me and I will also always be around for her. I know, we know our connection. We always know.

I did a flower arrangement for her. Three stalks of sunshine for her.

It is Monnie’s turn to shine!

I hope Miemi love what I have done for her. Knowing that I always love her.

Hope I will be enlightened in my years ahead.

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When one is in a better living condition, it doesn’t mean that he or she has the right to laugh, to look down and to criticise on those who do not live in an ideal condition.

When one is rich, it never served a reason to spite and mock at the poor.

For someone who died young, it didn’t mean he or she has obtained a bad karma and likewise, for those who achieved longevity, it didn’t say a good karma has been obtained.

When one is in a higher position, it never served a reason to belittle those who are in a lower position.

Whatever the conditions we are in, all souls are equal.

“If you find no one to support you on the spiritual path, walk alone. There is no companionship with the immature.”
― Gautama Buddha,

I follow His path closely, not to be influenced by the unwise. Keep the faith. I will see the light.

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I fed Puss and Blackie half an hour ago. Puss is doing well. She came to me for food. As usual, she ate a little, that’s why she is so skinny. Somebody stole Blackie’s collar. It didn’t bother me at all as long as he is safe.

For Blackie, I fed him four times today. Puss doesn’t come around in the day. I can only see her at night. I don’t know where she hides in the day. I wish I know and I hope I can feed her at least twice a day. Good thing is she is able to get along with Blackie and Mr Slow. Three of them get along well. No fighting, no hissing.

I hope someone is feeding Puss too. There are feeders around and I see dry food scattering around. I hope Puss eats it when she is hungry. I hope she puts on some weight.

This is Puss. Photos were taken last night.

She didn’t eat when I fed her at 9 plus last evening. When I went down again after an hour, she came to me for her share.

She is tame when she is out in the wild but a fierce girl when she was at home. Always chasing and beating Cashie and Monnie.

As for Blackie, he is a good boy even when he is out in the wild. I dislike the children here. They always scare and bully the cats. I really dislike them. They are wild children to me but poor kids too cos they have irresponsible parents. Parents that do not give them “angbao” during their new year. I asked four kids yesterday, they were quite angry and upset when I asked if their parents gave them “angbao”. All said they received none and hoping I could give them and how can I possibly give them??? I will not harm them even though I dislike them. They are just kids.

I hope the kids stay away from the cats.

I hope to see Puss early in the morning tomorrow, say at 6.30am cos I will be preparing food for them.

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I cleared the sand, washed and scrubbed the little trays and the cage’s tray. Swept the sand that was left on the floor and moppedthe floor clean. There are two three feet cages. I folded one and put it aside and left another open. It will be easy for me if I need to use it fast.

I realised that there was fur. It’s not surprising actually. I have neglected this. How much I have missed Miemi’s fur falling everywhere. I also washed the e-collars. I can keep them and use them again.

Cashie and Monnie looked a little depressed without Blackie and Puss around. Yes, my home is a little quiet without them and I still haven’t got a chance to feed Puss. I wonder where is little Puss hiding. I tried to look for her in the morning and half an hour ago but I couldn’t find her. I saw her last night. She was disoriented and didn’t eat what I gave her. Don’t know if she has anything since I last fed her yesterday.

I will find her tonight again. I miss her the most. I fed Blackie twice already. He is coping well, bullying others and being bullied by others. He is still an obedient boy. Sweet like Cashie.

Cashie is lying beside me.

My handsome little sweet boy.

Monnie only appears when she feels like appearing. Cashie just loves to keep me accompany, just like Miemi. Blackie and Puss love to be by my side too. I must see Puss tonight.

Another of Puss’ photo.

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Miss Puss is released today! I carried her down without a cage. She is easy to handle, unlike Blackie. She went to a small landscape garden which I just realised it today. I saw a small yellow butterfly flying around. Honestly, I would have chosen to stay there than in the cage at home. I am happy for Puss. I wish her safe and sound.

I put on a red collar on her.

Puss is beautiful. I will feed both Blackie and Puss at least twice a day. I will give them supplement too. I began missing them both.

After feeding Queenie later, I will feed blackie and Puss again. Both had three meals already. They had four when I took care of them.

Miss my little playful big eyes Puss:).

So, who will be the next cat to cross my path?

I wish every cat safe and sound.

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