Cats who teach me to fly…

I am so sad, so very sad. I promised Puss I will bring her home and that she would not have to sleep under the car or hides when it rains. I told her we have a deal that she would have to accompany me to my new flat while I paint the house. I told her to be safe always and that I will bring her home very soon.

I last saw her last Friday, late at night at 11 plus. Since then, I never saw her again. I waited for three days for her return but she never came back. Yesterday, I started to print a “missing cat” notice and I pasted it everywhere. Hopefully someone would call me and help me find Puss.

I waited the whole day and finally a lady called me last night, she told me she saw her at her block on the eighth floor. Puss was walking out from the lift. She said Puss might be roaming around the sixth, seventh and eighth floor. Immediately when I put down the phone, Mel and I went opposite to look for Puss. We couldn’t find her. I went this morning and afternoon to find her again but I still seeno trace of her…

Puss is always playful I know but she always knows where to wait for her food. I am so sad whenever I go down and feed the rest. Something is missing. Puss is missing! I felt anguished. Mel said I was looking for problem. She doesn’t know what “giving fully” means.

I hope Puss is safe and loved by somebody. I even hope her new owner would come to me and tell me she is ok. The owner can have Puss if the owner really loves her but I think I should have the right to know her whereabouts.

Still, I hope Puss would find her way back to me. We have a promise. We have a deal.

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Finally, my flat is ready and I collected my keys this afternoon. Mel was with me. HDB did not approved my loan. HDB did not approve my grant too. Mel lent me a huge sum of money, hard cash. I don’t think I need our government anymore. I regretted so much that I made the biggest and worst decision to have voted for PAP in 2011.

I supported PAP my whole life. Voted for them three times. I admired and respected Mr Lee since the day I learnt about Singapore but now… until now and it took me so long to realised that our government has been working so hard for their own interest but not for the citizens of Singapore.

I have volunteered myself for so many years, from helping the elderly to preparing food for the needy and I was so blind not to realise that these people do not receive much help from the government. And blindly I still voted for PAP.

I see the poor and the old struggling to make a living everyday. No matter how poor or old our people are, they did walk through the early years of Singapore. Helped Singapore to prosper. They did their part. Today, some do not even have a shelter above them. Many are struggling to keep up with the economy. And what did our PM says ” Singaporean must solve their problem themselves”.

True, we all must and will solve our problems ourselves. Therefore, we don’t or I don’t need you anymore. I don’t need a government that don’t and won’t help. I definitely don’t need a government who only listen to their own voice. Sigh… What took me so long to see the hard truth?

No matter how selfish and greedy our government has treated us, I will find my happiness by living a simple life. I still prefer a work life balances. I live for myself and not for our government.

A kind Christian old lady knocked on my door this morning. She told me she wanted to spread happiness to me through God. I told her I am happy, I am very happy. I hope she believes me when I told her that I am happy and I really mean it when I say I am happy:). We find our own happiness. No one can make us unhappy unless we allow them too.

For those who are not happy with our government, please do not allow them to affect you. Stay calm and be happy. We have a choice to live the way we want it. Just be wise when you make your vote in 2016.

This Sunday is an auspicious day for me to open the door. Can’t wait to see my new flat. Well, not really my flat after all… Still belong to our greedy government.

Looking forward! 🙂

I would rather die as a good man than to live as a bad man.

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The above flower arrangement is for Miemi. I did it this morning. I told Miemi the taller sunflower represents Mummy and the shorter one represents her. I told the same thing to Mel. Mel asked where she is in the flower arrangement. She answered to herself that she must be the pot to support all of us. Haha…

I totally agree with Mel. Mel represents the pot, the two sunflowers represent Miemi and I, the biggest stalks side flowers represent Cashie and Monnie and the rest starting from the third biggest to the smallest are the cats that are in my life. The leaves represent peace and nature.

Mel plays an important role. Yes, we all need her and we want her to be part of us. We are family.

So guess who was hiding behind the flower arrangement when I took the photo?

I have renewed the latest poster from “The rainbow bridge” to “Return from the rainbow bridge”.

Yes, I believe in reincarnation and Miemi and I and all of us will be together again.

The cat behind the flower arrangement was Monnie.

Monnie has grown so much. Beside both are the same sex, there is nothing similar between Miemi and Monnie. Both have their own temperament.

Miemi during her younger years.

Miss and love her so much…

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Isn’t she adorable?

Miemi was five year old that day. She only wore the dress once. She looked so young and adorable. Mummy loves and still loves her so much. Yes, I celebrated her birthday every year. I estimated her birthday to be on 8th of October 2001. The year is definitely correct. If I am not wrong, she found me in around end of November. I guess probably she was around one month old. Perhaps I have estimated her age three weeks to a month earlier. Well, it doesn’t matter. No matter how old she is, she is still my baby, my beautiful angel.

I bought some roses for her.

I intended to get her sunflower that day but it didn’t look fresh. It has been quite some time that I have not done sunflower for Miemi.

On her fifth birthday that year, we shifted to a new place. When I first brought her in, she was unable to eat and sleep. For two weeks, she hid under my bed and ate very little. She always behave like that when she is at a new place. I have nothing to worry about her cos I assured her every time that I was around with her. I guided her to her food and water and showed her the way to her litter. She got used to it after two weeks and everything went back to normal.

I thought I could bring Miemi to a bigger home which is another few more months, however, Miemi has much important mission to accomplish and she had to leave me. Well, I will always keep a place for her. I want Miemi to be happy.

I have a lot of her younger days photos which I still keep it with me. I intend to paste and hang all her photos on the wall as part of the decoration in my new home. Mel has agreed to it too. No point keeping the photos in the album for it to turn yellow. I am looking forward to that day.

It is always so nice talking about Miemi and never once feeling tired about it. This is what we call a never ending love!

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