Today is the second day of the three-day retreat at KMSPKS. I only sit in the afternoon, as my mornings are always busy when my home looks like a cat shelter.
I may not sit to meditate the way I used to, however, I try my best to attend the meditation sessions held at KMSPKS at least twice a week.
What does Dhamma exhaustion look like? The Buddha allowed four types of feelings and they are loving-kindness, compassion, appreciative joy, and equanimity. Out of nowhere, these qualities came to mind yesterday while I was in the bathroom, and I started to examine myself. Surprisingly, they are still there. My desires remain strong, desires that do not cause harm to others and that is enough. I need to live!
My fingers are too exhausted to flip the pages of the Nikaya texts. I don’t read right now, but I remember the teachings. I have always been intrigued by Sarakani’s alcohol habit.
Last week, I was having tea at the “Real Food” vegan restaurant and ordered a glass of fermented sparkling lemonade. Strangely, it tasted like alcohol and I got tipsy. At that exact moment, I thought of Sarakani. I have always wondered what was on his mind when he was drinking. When the tipsiness kicked in, my mind went blank, zero content. Was that what was in Sarakani’s mind when he drank?
I’m definitely not done with this experiment, and when the time is right… it won’t be kombucha.
Cats who teach me to fly... 