Completed another 100 hours of meditation. From clinging to nimittas to wanting nothing. From expecting results to wanting nothing. From tense to complete relaxation. We really do not have to do anything. Just relax, focus and be still. I guess stillness is not enough for me, it has to be paired with concentration. I can have physical stillness but not mental concentration. It’s good that there are more practise to be done.
What have I learned from another 100 hours of meditation? I have understood what Buddha meant by “the base of space, the base of consciousness, the base of nothingness and the base of neither perception nor-perception. All these have to be experienced and not to be understood intellectually.
At first I was confused because I couldn’t think and I was still confused until one evening I finally realised that the experience cannot be analysed at that point of time. I should say I’m only touching the surface and the concentration has not yet fully stabilised. There are still more work and practise to be done. I guess it’s going to be a long way for me.
Beside this, because of the stillness, I tend not to be over affected by uncontrolled circumstances. The stillness quickly take over when anxieties arise. I don’t think I’m doing well yet. There is still more work to do! And I love the work. Hope there will be progress as I move into the next 100 hours of meditation!
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