Cats who teach me to fly…

Just a week ago, Dharma has left us. Today, Lokit has left me…us.
So, it all comes to an end…

Lokit’s latest photo. Always sweet and beautiful like a princess.

She looked healthy, extremely active and filled with life. She ran, jumped and hopped all over the place and she just started to play fight a little yesterday…
I have learnt from Ava, Dharma and Lokit that when life has to come to an end, it will come to an end and there will be no negotiation, delay or whatsoever. Watching Dharma and Lokit depart were a painful experience for me. I, we were helpless… There was completely nothing we can do…but to hold Lokit in my arms.
I took videos of her. I want to remember her, remember Ava and Dharma. We will eventually meet again and I want to love them just like I love Miemi and everyone dearly…
I am tired.. not because of taking care of Ava, Dharma and Lokit. I am tired of my prayers, chanting, reading etc… my Dharma practice.
Taking care of the three angels and the rest never tired me out. I don’t know how far or how good I have been practising. I felt myself useless cos I can’t even save Ava, Dharma and Lokit and I desperately wanted to… I was and am powerless…to even take away their pain. And what makes me think that I can help them to have a favourable rebirth…
I don’t know and I am tired to think about it. However, these will not stop me from continuing doing virtuous deeds. I want to dedicate my merits to them and for them. I want the best for all of them. I want them to have the best.
I am going to miss Lokit a lot.
I am always visualising carrying Lokit around even when she grows older and bigger. We will stick together through thick and thin just like Miemi… this thought will remain with me forever. It is just like carrying Miemi in my heart always. Lokit and everyone of them will be with me till death find me…