Cats who teach me to fly…

I went to Hougang on Friday late night to search for Sayang. There were completely no sight of her. I checked with a feeder who was distributing food to the cats that night, she didn”t even bother to know what or where or who a tabby grey cat was.
As far as I know, all the community cats were there that night except Sayang. Was Sayang sick? She didn’t look like she was when I last saw her. She did behave unusually. She didn’t come to me for food. For the last few days that I saw her, I brought food to her. I told myself not to spoil her. If she is hungry she will come to me like she always did. If I knew she would disappear, I would have brought the food to her everyday…
If I knew Blessed would run down by car, I would have also send him food and water everyday… If only and if only…
Queenie, Princess, Moo, Ginby and now Sayang… They all have gone missing just like that… And Blessed…
I have always told myself that community cats already do not have a shelter, they had to sleep on hard floor, rain and shine. They hide under the car when it is raining. There is no place safe and comfortable for them. Therefore, I am always generous with the food I give them. Hoping to at least provide them the comfort of keeping their stomach filled up always and they do not have to wait for long hours for the next meal. However, I am still not giving my best to them.
What is wrong to just simply walk to send the food to Sayang and Blessed. It is neither going to take my life away nor going to take up a lot of time away from me…
From this, I have learnt my lesson…
Wherever Queenie, Princess, Moo, Ginby and Sayang are now, I hope that they are in safe hands. And whatever happens, I am always connected to them. They will have my dedication everyday.
As long as I am still alive and healthy, I will always be on the same ground expecting them to return…