Cats who teach me to fly…

Sunkiss was diagnosed with spinal arthritis. He could not walk with his hind leg on Saturday and I immediately brought him to the vet. He was eating well in the morning that day and playing well but all of a sudden, he could not walk with his hind leg. He had his X-ray. I thought it was arthritis and nothing else. What came to my mind was to get him back to walk and think of a way not to let his arthritis occur again. Never did I expect Sunkiss would leave us yesterday evening and I was not even at home.

We had Sunkiss cremated this morning. We brought his ash home and placed the urn next to Miemi’s. Immediately I developed a few of Sunkiss photos. People were saying that Sunkiss was beautiful.

This is the picture that I placed beside his urn.

I love him so much!

I am terribly upset. I miss him. I miss his love. I will always miss him sleeping close to me. He would sleep wherever I sleep. I felt so hurt just like when Miemi was gone. It doesn’t matter whether I have spent 11 years or only 8 months with Sunkiss. The pain is the same.

I don’t feel like doing anything. Sunkiss keeps appearing in my mind and I have never expected or prepared for his departure. I wish I could have him or I thought I could have him for another ten years or so as he seemed like a kitten to me. I was naive.

Sunkiss was a hyperactive cat. He flew all over the house. I hope Cashie, Monnie and Elka have no problem coping without Sunkiss. The house was quiet without him. It is unbearable.

I have been thinking about what is the point of doing so many things in life when we could not even keep our loved ones with us. Why is life so imperfect? There are flaws all over.

But still, deep down I know I will meet Miemi and Sunkiss and the rest of the cats again. We will be together again. I always tell all my cats to stay close to one another. We must always keep our heart close to one another. I told Mel that we would sit down fortnightly and talk to Miemi and Sunkiss. We will light up a candle. To me it is a kind of communication with them and we are keeping close to one another.

Mel was as sad as me. She left for Kuantan during the weekend and when she was back yesterday, Sunkiss was gone. Sunkiss was not gone. He is actually still around without his physical body.

Sunkiss taught me not to be afraid of death. He taught me not to care when I would die.

I asked Miemi to guide Sunkiss to heaven and also for the angels to watch over them. Miemi sent me a message last night. She turned off the fan again. I guess she was telling me that she was around and that Sunkiss was with her.

Thanks Miemi and Sunkiss. Thanks to the angels.

Mummy loves and misses Sunkiss.