Cats who teach me to fly…

I was asking myself just now if life will be better if I were selfish? I imagined that whatever I earn, I keep it for myself. I don’t spend on others. Neither will I give my money to just anyone, even my kin or charity. No one stands on my ground, everyone stays away from my so-called property and even the void deck. I would have no pets. It is me, only myself. It is all about my own happiness, my big self. Me, I, come first. Will life be better? Perhaps…

Sometimes I am so convinced by others’ selfish actions that made me doubt my own values. People think only about their own interest and they get what they want even if it means to hurt someone or put others into danger. They are happy cos they get what they want. Happy! Yes, happy.

Perhaps, I have been selfish too… Will life be better? Will I have everything if I am selfish. Will being selfish give me peace? Perhaps… cos I care less? Care less for others or even not at all and care only about myself? No, there won’t be peace. I guess I would probably be fighting with myself and I am my own greatest enemy. My chest feels so tight when I imagine myself being selfish. I can feel dissatisfaction and ignorance and a little anger and I can’t feel happiness. I guess everyone has a different way of describing how they feel towards selfishness. For me, I felt tight in my chest.

Conclusion: Will life be better if I am selfish? My answer is no.