Cats who teach me to fly…

Friday used to mean a lot to me in the past. Now, every day is meaningful to me.

When I used to work 5 days a week from 8.30am to 5.30pm, I was always looking forward for Friday cos weekend was my off day. So Friday gave me a light-hearted feeling. Always looking forward for Friday. Life remained dull from Monday to Thursday. In fact, I have nothing special to do on Fridays too. Just because it is end of the week, I just feel happy.

Now, I no longer look forward for Friday. Every day is equally meaningful to me. I am doing the things that I love and I don’t think about my past and neither do I worry about my future. I just want to stay calm at the moment. I don’t care how I am going to die. I only care what I can and what i am doing now.

I am still able to walk, then make good use of it and walk around and feed the strays. My body is still strong, then help the weak. I am still mentally sound, then read more, gain knowledge, contemplate and be enlightened.

Life is simple, live simply.

I might not have many friends but I have cats. Cats that teach me how to live and love. People find us pathetic because we have cats as soul mates and those people who find us pathetic have never really love an animal before. This is something profound and it is not something that can be expressed by words.

After living for nearly half a century, I have realised that we actually live for ourselves. Many times I heard people saying that because of you… I do this and that… The truth is, we are actually living for ourselves but we think we are living for others. No, we are not… We never live for others.

Life is a cycle… I ask myself if I am tired of coming back again and again. Yes, I am but it will be even worst not to come back. I am not attached to the material world here but I am attached to the people and animals that need help. I can’t save the world which I wish I could but I hope to make a little difference to a person’s or animal’s life. Just one and I will be contented, although not fulfilling. Even if it is just Miemi and next life we will be together again and I will enlighten her with my wisdom and next life again and again until she becomes a human or perhaps she reincarnates as a human in her next life and I will still teach and guide her, not to let her go astray. Life after life until she is wise to help others and the cycle repeats and repeats itself again.

Perhaps I am dreaming.

In order to teach and guide another soul in the next life, one has to do good not in school results or in the career performance but in moral. A right attitude towards others. Right action, right intention, right mindfulness… One has to practise good in this life in order for us or should I say, for me, to teach and guide Miemi again in my next life. Maybe… maybe Miemi would be the one who is guiding me again:).

Whatever it is, these are just bit and pieces of my thought. But I am serious about helping souls in my next life.

Little Miemi, we will be together again.

Sigh… Little Cashie…

and little Monnie…