Cats who teach me to fly…

Mel recently took a photo of me. I loaded up the photos to my desktop yesterday. When I clicked on my photo and looked at myself, I realised that the years are showing on my face. Especially around my eyes. Yes, I have grown old. My eyes say a lot. The ups and downs, the pain and joy, the valuable lessons that I have learnt along the way. I have learnt to accept things that I didn’t want to or should I say I was force to accept reality that I didn’t want to. One after another and each and every time it teaches me to grow. To love and to be compassionated. To be understanding and forgiving. They are all written on my face. My heart ached for myself:). I told myself that I have to treat myself well. Not to treat myself well in a materialistic way but to forgive myself when I make mistakes. To have an open heart and broader mind. To ignore criticism. To always stay calm. To have a relax mind. To not influence by others. To love and be myself. How do I achieve this? I guess the only way to achieve these is through meditation.

I will and have to start meditating. In fact I have already started. Not by sitting down to meditate but to meditate wherever I go and whatever I do. I bring myself to concentrate on what I am doing and whenever my mind wonders around, I bring it back. It is not easy, I have to keep reminding myself.

Sometimes I wonder if Miemi notices any changes in me. I mean physical changes. She was with me when I was 27. Now that I am 40. I believe she should have noticed it. I don’t know if she can recognise me in another next ten or twenty years if I am still alive. I know she is around and will always be around for me and I will also always be around for her. I know, we know our connection. We always know.

I did a flower arrangement for her. Three stalks of sunshine for her.

It is Monnie’s turn to shine!

I hope Miemi love what I have done for her. Knowing that I always love her.

Hope I will be enlightened in my years ahead.