Cats who teach me to fly…

The second match was held on 12 May. We beat our opponent again in the mixed doubles. Here comes the third match, my nightmare. Our so-called coach swopped me from playing mixed double to singles which I am completely incapable of. When I asked him about the switch in players for mixed doubles, he did not give me a reason.

I lost with 2-21 and 2-21. It was a complete humiliation to me. While I was competing with my opponent, I kept asking myself, why was I in this state of humiliation as I was never trained to play in a singles match and our trained singles player was not playing and instead she was replacing me for mixed doubles. The only reason I could think of  is our coach did it for personal reasons. He didn’t want our singles player to lose as she was trained by him. If she loses, there goes our coach’s pride. There is never an official reason. I felt completely ashamed of his cowardly act. It was for selfish reasons and non-professional.

The Thomas Cup and Uber Cup was held at Wuhan, China at the same time. I watched them played. It was a team game. Our community games is also a team game. From the Thomas and Uber Cup, I learnt that the coaches arrange top players to the match. I saw their spirit and bravery. China won this round. Everyone was happy receiving their medals. Those who fought and those who did not have a chance to fight were all happy.

I represented Whampoa Team B while our coach represented Whampoa Team A. Team B fought 3 matches and Team A only one. Team A is obviously stronger than Team B. Our coach arranged the weaker ones to play first. Now we are in finals which is this Wed, 6th of June. Whampoa Team A against Whampoa Team B. What a joke? Team B has fought their way and Team A which is the coach’s team is strong and they are going to defeat us? What kind of arrangement is this? I felt that I was being fool. If the team feels the same way too, we are being foolish too.

Who doesn’t want to win in a competition? During my third match when I was swopped to play singles, I told my coach that I was ashamed and would not come for the next game. My teammate saw his intention, his intention of using us to win his match and told me to turn up for the final and fight till the end.

Honestly, we only have a 20% of winning chances. Man singles(team A stronger), man doubles(team A stronger), master doubles(team A stronger) and mixed double(team A stronger) and we are only left with woman’s single which I think our singles could win. So overall… Intelligently plotted by our coach. I was filled with rage when I realised it and it was too late.

The dilemma I had now is whether to go to the final or not…